Job knew his ten children had just begun another round of banquets that day. He was undoubtedly thinking of his duties, as the family elder and priest, to once again offer sacrifices on behalf of his children when their feasting was finished. But Job’s thoughts were interrupted by the arrival of a messenger, shouting that all of Job’s oxen and donkeys had been plundered; all the attendants killed except this one. Hard upon his heels came another frantic messenger, to inform Job that all his sheep had been consumed by holy fire; all the attendants incinerated except this one. Immediately another messenger arrived, panting out news of the theft of all Job's camels; all the attendants slaughtered except this one. And instantly a fourth messenger rushed in, crying that all Job's children had died in the collapse of the eldest son’s house; all the attendants crushed except this one.
God is capricious. Aside from using you for his amusement, he sees no worth or merit in you. God does not love you.Adonai Tzva’ot [“the Lord of Hosts”] gave Satan permission to attack Job. Interesting, isn't it, that Satan chose to spare one attendant from each calamity. He could have simply allowed Job to find out over the period of a week or two...drawing out the suspense, gradually heightening the tension. But Satan chose to hit hard, hit fast. In the face of God's own opinion of Job—that he was an upright man who would never curse Adonai—it seems that Satan decided to give his lie as much reinforcement as he possibly could. He even used "fire from God" as one of the manners in which he chose to attack Job. (And he used that fire to consume Job’s sheep, specifically. There is added importance in that gesture, but it’s a subject for another time.)
Satan spoke to Job through the total destruction of his legacy.
God does not love you. Your service and devotion cannot please him; your children cannot please him; you cannot please him.Satan spoke to Job in the torment of his own body:
This is the extent of God’s capricious regard for you. This agony is your true priesthood, your sole heritage. God does not love you.Satan spoke to Job through the pointed absence of his relatives and community (42:11):
You have been chosen for torment. You are utterly abandoned--God has made you a blight upon the earth.Satan spoke to Job from the mouth of his wife (2:9): "Why do you still hold on to your integrity? Curse God and die!"
God does not love you. End your misery; it's more than you can bear. Get the only satisfaction you can hope for.Satan spoke to Job through the false vision given to his friend, Elifaz (4:12-21): "Can a human being be seen by God as righteous? Can a mortal be pure before his maker? [God] doesn't trust even his own servants, he finds fault even with his angels; much more those living in houses of clay, whose foundation is in the dust."
God finds no merit in you. Your upright conduct is a farce. He will never be pleased with you. Curse him. Then die. Lash out, and then seek respite in oblivion. God does not love you.Job’s very foundations were assaulted from every side. A solid wave of malevolence engulfed him, and seemingly dissolved the very ground upon which he stood. On his arm, Job bore the shield of Adonai—the defense of all who seek the Lord. But he could not block all of the blows. The darkness pierced Job so intentionally, so persistently. He knew that he’d committed no sin: this punishment was not justified by any wrongdoing of his. But when the lies flood in—when feet seem to no longer find purchase on solid foundations and flailing arms can find nothing but twisted darkness to hang onto—what is there to grasp? What was Job to believe about God? What was he to believe about himself? The number of his wounds mounted. All he clutched dissolved to swirling ashes. How difficult must it have been to blindly trust in the Most High, and to believe he is Just and Good?
Job was not a perfect man. He struggled and doubted; his legs began to buckle. Repeated blows from all sides take such a toll. “Why do you hide your face and think of me as an enemy? Do you want to harass a wind-driven leaf? Do you want to pursue a dry straw? Is this why you draw up bitter charges against me and punish me for the faults of my youth?” (13:24-26) The enemy struck a little deeper than Job could bear; he gasped…and breathed in some of the ashes clouding the air around him.
“[Why give light] to a man who wanders blindly, whom God shuts in on every side?” (3:23)
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Jesus spent thirty-three years on this earth. Prior to that, he spent all of eternity (not simply the finite time leading up to his birth, but
all of eternity: all the time that ever can be, and all that exists outside of that time) in perfect union with God the Father, and God the Holy Spirit. And at the proper moment, he willingly relinquished it all.
Jesus faced oppression in all possible forms. The four gospels provide detailed accounts of three particularly intense struggles: Jesus’ forty days in the wilderness, his time of prayer just before his arrest, and his trial and torture prior to death. Yet even as a mortal man, our sinless Messiah still enjoyed unbroken communion with God. Unlike Job, the Son of God had an unwavering foundation. Jesus’ legs could not be swept from under him; his grasp of his Father’s Goodness never loosened. Even as he labored out of Jerusalem toward his death on the hill called The Skull, omnipotent Father and obedient Son remained unhindered in their unity.
But the cross was yet before him.
Darkness gathered in this, the hour of its rule. From the moment of Jesus’ arrest, it crashed down to engulf his world. All around him dissolved to swirling ashes. He did not reach out, hoping to clutch something solid in the decaying air. He did not shout or gasp. The foundation beneath his feet no longer visible, Jesus walked deliberately forward; the Holy Spirit guided him step by step along the narrow, unseen path across the battlefield.
Satan spoke to Jesus through Judas’ betraying kiss, and the desertion of his closest friends:
You are truly alone. They do not love you. Your devotion and sacrifice cannot satisfy them. You cannot triumph.Jesus replied, “This is the cup the Father has given me; am I not to drink it?” (Jn 18:11) and stood firm in his belief of the Father’s sovereignty: “I have not lost one of those you gave me” (Jn 18:9)
Satan spoke to Jesus in the torment of his own body and Pilate’s offer of release (Jn. 19:10):
Is this agony your true kingship, your priesthood? You are capable of so much more. Defend your name, and take up the honor you’ve denied yourself for so long. Otherwise I will loose them upon you like the ravenous jackals they are. I hold your life in my hands. Declare yourself! Show your power. This is the only way for you to triumph.Jesus declared, “You would have no power over me if it hadn’t been given to you from above.” (Jn. 19:11) He clung to his Father’s wisdom: “My kingship does not derive its authority from this world’s order of things.” (Jn 18:36)
Satan spoke to Jesus from the mouths of his nation: "Take him away! Take him away! Put him to death on the stake! We have no king but the Emperor." (Jn 19:15) “His blood is on us and on our children!” (Mt 27:25)
They do not love you. End your misery; it's more than you can bear. Get the only satisfaction you can hope for. Declare yourself! Show your power. Make them love you.Jesus replied only with his silence.
The enemy took his cue. Noon had come: the hour of greatest light succumbed to the dominion of darkness. The malevolent cloud surrounding the Messiah spread wide to consume all inhabitants of the living day. Swirling ash became a tangible shroud. And although his physical body stumbled on the long, blood-soaked trek out of the city, Jesus did not gasp or falter. His trust in the Goodness of his Father did not buckle under the blows. He continued moving forward, one step at a time, as carnage and chaos ruled all around.
But the cross was yet to come.
It was now early afternoon. The oppressive pall continued to gorge upon Jerusalem—striking indiscriminately, and drinking deeply of the fear and despair that poured from open wounds. The darkness grew stronger, the people weaker.
Satan spoke to Jesus from the throats of Jew and Gentile, usurping the voice of his Bride: “Aha! So you can destroy the Temple, can you, and rebuild it in three days? Save yourself and come down from the stake!” “He saved others, but he can’t save himself!” “So he is the Messiah, is he? The King of Israel? Let him come down from the stake! If we see that, then we’ll believe him!” (Mk 15: 29-32) “Hail to the King of the Jews!” (Mk 15:18)
See how they love you. See what good your love does without power. Declare yourself! Reduce them to cinders with one blaze of your glory; we both know you can. Remove yourself from this pain and claim your honor!Jesus again turned to his ever-present Father: “Father, forgive them; they don’t understand what they are doing.” (Lk 23:34)
Jesus never faltered. He remained: hanging by his arms from the execution stake, forcing his body upward to drag air into his searing throat and drop down again. In Jesus’ spirit lay the power to break free and heal himself in an instant…or even just to deaden his nerves, or supernaturally call air into his drowning lungs. But Jesus’ feet remained fixed to the solid foundation forged by his unbroken communion with Adonai, his Father. His trust did not waiver. No ash passed his lips.
But the cross was yet to be realized.
Three hours past noon. And then the final blow, the ultimate agony: not death, but Death. The ultimate purpose for voluntarily entering into time came upon Jesus in an instant: Sin. The sinless Messiah took up a weight heavier than the cloud of lies surrounding that hill. And in that moment he incurred the absolute price: Separation. The cross had come. Sin devoured the passionate bond of omnipotent Father and obedient Son. Unparalleled agony! Throwing back his head, Jesus abused his weakened lungs to cry out in his extremity of anguish: “My God! My God! Why have you deserted me?” (Mt 27:46) Who can imagine the torn and bleeding void left in the wake of such unity! God ripped from himself…willingly…in the ultimate act of love and communion. One blow had finally penetrated!
But had it really? Even in his unmitigated torment, the words of Jesus’ cry originate in the Psalms. “My God! My God! Why have you abandoned me? Why so far from helping me, so far from my anguished cries?...Nevertheless, you are holy, enthroned on the praises of Israel.” (Psalm 22:1, 3) The son of David repeated the prayer of his earthly forefather, declaring his undying trust in the power and faithfulness of his heavenly Father. The Sacrificial Lamb announced the fulfillment of prophecy, laid out so clearly in earlier generations.
The darkness pushed in, tearing and hacking, seeking surrender. Feet firmly planted upon ash, Jesus maintained his grip upon the severed bond—the union of which he could not now partake. But still He refused defeat. And then, with his last vestiges of endurance, Jesus hoarsely shouted, “Father! Into your hands I commit my spirit.” Quoting David once more, the Son of God vocalized his trust in the unchanging Goodness of his Father, glorifying Adonai even in the perfection of his torment. “Free me from the net they have hidden to catch me, because you are my strength. Into your hands I commit my spirit; you will redeem me, Adonai, God of truth” (Ps 31:4-5). The Word Incarnate proclaimed to all those with ears to hear and eyes to see: “Before Abraham came into being, I AM!” (Jn 8:58) Before Job…and after Job…and beyond the end of this world.
And then: “It is accomplished!” (Jn 19:30) The sacrifice was complete. The Lamb accepted death. In so doing, Death was vanquished eternally. Graves unsealed themselves, and many God-fearing men and women returned to life. The blood price had now been met. Forever. And in the instant of his death, the severed bond was restored. The gaping wound of mutilated relationship was healed. But the nail scars remained.
By forfeiting his birthright in loving obedience, Jesus ensured the permanence of his unity with God the Father and God the Holy Spirit…throughout all the time that ever can be, and all that exists outside of that time. By standing in the indefensible void, he forged a path across the battlefield. And he gained the eternal authority to share that path. The Temple veil shielding the Holy of Holies supernaturally ripped from top to bottom. We have access. The foundation can never be shaken or dissolved; our bond cannot be broken. Moreover, Jesus tempered a weapon in the fires of his torment: a two-edged sword. If we choose to walk his path through the carnage, we not only carry the shield of Adonai on our arm. We walk with the sword of Jesus in our hand. We are not at the enemy’s mercy. We will only taste ashes if we choose to breathe them in.
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Job did not fail entirely. He neither blamed nor cursed God. Even as his legs began to buckle, and the bitter taste of ash filled his mouth, Job still reached out for that which he could not feel: he sought Adonai Shamah [“The Lord is There”]. Job cried out in question, and despair…until the darkness parted before God’s own sword: his blatant invitation to Job for a closer relationship. Satan lost. And Job learned of the grandeur, the majesty, and the mercy of Adonai Nissi [“The Lord is My Banner/Miracle”]. He stood, weak-kneed, on solid ground once more—now armed with a powerful sword (although it was not yet forged in completion) for future combat. As the ash settled, Job surveyed the carnage of a now-visible battle field, with an increased depth to his trust in a God who is absolutely Good. And that growth had been the Lord’s plan all along. Although it was not yet forged in completion, the Lord gave Job a powerful sword for support in future combat.
God restored to Job all that had been taken. Job regained his wealth in double measure. Of course, this was not instantaneous: even with the Lord’s favor, herds can only multiply so quickly. What sort of conversations did Job have with the Most High as he painstakingly rebuilt from scratch, I wonder? The Lord blessed Job with another ten children. Again, this would have taken some time. And the first ten would never be replaced or forgotten. I’m sure the devoted father often recalled a bright laugh, a cocky stance, or a sullen nature that he would never meet again on this earth. How heavily must Job have relied upon that Goodness at times? Job’s body was restored instantly; at least, his skin was healed—since he offered sacrifices for his erring friends, he must have been ritualistically clean. But were Job’s mind and spirit healed as quickly? It is doubtful. Usually, scars remain. And what if the long days and nights of sitting brought on some other physical problem? Job had many days left to live. He may have limped, in body or in mind, through all of them. Were Job’s relationships with his wife, his relatives, his community ever made right again? I do not know. It is clear that interaction resumed, but some of these relationships may have sustained lasting damage. At the very least, it probably took some time. No further attacks on Job are recorded. That does not mean he didn’t face any. But Job had endured some very harsh growth; Adonai does not waste such a gift. In spite of residual scarring—or rather, because of it—Job probably withstood the blows much better in future battles.
My growth is never painless. Satan is too clever--he doesn't make blunted weapons. Nor does he aim for my fortified areas. Sometimes when he pierces me, I bleed and crumple under the blow. But the Most High does not make blunted weapons either. Long after Job’s struggle toward God, Jesus Christ provided me with a double-edged sword. Satan may still pierce me; but as I bleed, I can dig my sword into the ground as a walking stick.
The Lord allows me to encounter trials in order to strengthen my trust and dependence upon him. But first, he makes me aware of the area(s) in which I am weak. This process often involves failure on my part (sometimes partial, or hidden, sometimes huge and blatantly obvious). Discovering my own pathetic state is unpleasant, even discouraging. Facing the truth can provide another opportunity for attack:
You're distgusting. There's no way you deserve the love of another human being, much less the love of God. This is your identity. You cannot escape or overcome.Everything becomes overwhelming--bleak and weighty. I carry a mighty weapon. But wounded and beleaguered, it is still easy to find myself pressed into a small corner of my own soul. All thought of taking the offensive disappears. Survival becomes my only hope...and even that is tenuous. I long for my Lord; I know he's somewhere nearby, but I cannot move to search for him. I am being pressed down too tightly. I can't raise my arms to attack, or defend. I can’t even muster the strength to push my sword into the ground to prop myself up.
But then, through the oppression and chaos, I hear the weapon I carry speaking to me: “Dear one, are you not the Child of the Most High? Are you not the Bride of Christ? You still have his sword in your hand. When the attacks become too heavy for action, take refuge in the weight of his sword in your hands. There is rest. There is protection. There is hope. You do not need to carry the fight forward, dear one; you need only not give ground—don’t retreat.
He is fighting for you. No matter how great your distress, just remember the magnificent Goodness he has given you to hold. Trust him. Just grip tightly and wait—he’s coming for you.”
He does come for me. Every single time. The Most High, our Lord, is pleased to use us, particularly in our weakened state. He is faithful to save, and to heal. But regardless of whether we stand or fall, he may not choose to remove all traces of our battle scars. We'll limp for a while…perhaps until the end of time. But it serves only to make us lean upon our swords more instinctively, and cry out more quickly to Adonai Tzidkenu [“The Lord our Righteousness”]. We become less likely to crumple under the blows.
“Be strong, and fill your hearts with courage, all of you who hope in Adonai.” (Psalm 31:24)
Let God show you the lies beleaguering you. Let him sustain you through all of these attacks, gradually fortifying you against them. Take up the sword he has given you: attack with it, lean upon it. And let the loving power of the Most High remove your last doubts of his Goodness.
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I originally published a version of this piece over a year ago. But as the Lord has continued leading me through many battlefields, I found myself again meditating upon the themes of this piece. I hope He revives and encourages you through these words once again. Please feel free to share any lies or battles you are currently facing, so that we can support each other.
